was going on in your life, emotionally, six months ago?" I asked Sandra.
I was hoping to find a clue that might explain the pain that had been
immobilizing her left hip for the last six months. I was doing a demonstration
at a metaphysical bookstore in Columbus, Ohio and Sandra had volunteered
to be my subject.
was when my granddaughter died," she responded. "She just lived for twelve
days. They had her in an incubator. She was so beautiful! And my daughter-in-law
wanted her so badly!"
myself in her position. How awful it would be to have a grandchild who
might die at any moment! How drained Sandra must have felt after each
precious visit to her tiny grandchildÑvisits that should have been filled
with joy and gladness. I put my hand gently on her shoulder. "That must
have been hard on all of you. Was she your first grandchild?"
are two others," she said, "But they live in California." She dabbed at
her eyes with a tissue.
surrounded by an audience of 20 people seated in a circle. During the
first hour of my presentation on Vibrational Healing and Chakra Diagnosis
I spoke about the chakras as seven whorls of spinning energy located along
the spine. I demonstrated how to use a long thin crystal to feel the spin
of energy at each chakra. I explained that there are seven stages of openness
at each chakra. When a chakra is fully open, the energy flows freely and
the person experiences a sense of health and balance in the corresponding
area. The lower chakras relate to the physical body; the middle chakras
relate to the emotions; and the upper chakras relate to one's spirituality.
Halfway through the two-hour talk, I offered to demonstrate the unique
method of Vibrational Alignment(TM) that I use with my clients. Asking for
a volunteer with a significant and relatively recent pain (since those
are easiest to heal), I warned that the work tends to get personal.
middle-aged woman with reddish-brown hair raised her hand. I called for
a break and asked her to talk with me. As the crowd dispersed, she walked
toward me with a slight limp, as if her left leg was shorter than her
right. Her red long-sleeved shirt was tucked into her beige corduroy pants.
After we talked I felt I could help her. While she went to the restroom,
I placed the massage table at the center of the circle. It was already
adjusted it to the lowest level so I could sit next to her.
the break was over, I returned to my seat in the circle and invited Sandra
to come sit in the empty chair next to mine. I began with an invocation
and then we all surrounded ourselves with white light for protection.
As I described earlier, we talked about the emotional origins of her pain.
Unexpressed emotions can manifest as pain in the physical body. Most men
have difficulty crying, and most women repress their anger. Yet sadness
and anger are intrinsic parts of grieving and the sooner they are expressed,
the quicker a person will be released from the iron grip of grief that
tends to wrap itself around their hearts and other parts of their bodies.
I asked, "Did you ever allow yourself to get angry about your granddaughter's
to be there for my daughter," she said defensively. "There was no time
for me to fall apart!"
about that. "Let me tell you a story," I said, knowing that if I spoke
intimately, but briefly, about my own loss, it would help Sandra to open
up and talk about hers. "When I was 13 my brother committed suicide. Both
my parents fell apart. I never saw my father cry before! I had to be strong
for them, so I never let myself grieve. I held in that pain for 22 years.
Then I met Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, the Swiss psychiatrist who pioneered
death and loss work in this country. Then I finally understood that anger
is a natural part of grieving. I was afraid to let myself get angry at
my big brother. He always seemed so perfect, and I didn't want to hurt
our love. But Elisabeth handed me an 18-inch length of heavy-duty industrial
rubber hose and pointed to the mattress.
at one of her workshops, and I had spent the last two days watching other
people pound on the mattress with the hose, and it seemed to make them
feel better. So I tried it, and I was surprised how easy it was. I just
blanked everyone out of my mind and focused all my energy on that mattress.
I couldn't believe all the emotions that came boiling up out of me.
angry at my brother for abandoning me, leaving me without a brother to
grow up with. I was pissed at him for leaving me to fend for myself with
my crazy mother. I was pissed at him for killing himself just when we
were starting to get really close. I just kept on hitting and yelling,
'Damn you! Damn you! Damn you!' After I carried on like that for awhile
I felt much better! I was able to truly open my heart and feel the depth
of my love for him. I could feel a deeper love for my children. I felt
like my heart was growing bigger.
I'm not necessarily suggesting that you feel angry at your granddaughter
for dying," I reassured Sandra. "But maybe there is anger toward someone
or something that you haven't been able to express. When we experience
a major loss, it creates a physiological stress in our bodies that makes
us want to run away or fight. When we suppress those natural instincts,
adrenaline and other chemicals get stored in our internal organs and joints."
I pointed meaningfully to her left hip. "The pain in that joint probably
relates to a suppressed need to run away or kick someone. Kicking or running
is a safe way to release those chemicals.
I think if you allow yourself to get in touch with your anger about losing
your granddaughter, you'll feel a lot better. Are youwilling to try that?"
She said she was, so I asked her to hold onto the side of the table with
her right hand and kick with her left leg. She didn't need much encouragement.
I told her she could kick as long as she wanted. She got up there and
kicked and kicked and kicked for at least five minutes. She seemed to
be doing fine, but I wondered if she might hurt that leg, so I asked,
"Does it hurt your hip to do that?"
she responded forcefully as she continued to kick without missing a beat,
"but it hurts good." Finally she was finished. I asked her to lie down
on her back on the massage table. When she was settled I told her to close
her eyes and take a few deep breaths. Then I said, "You're doing great,
Sandra. I'd like you to imagine that you're talking to your little baby
granddaughter. Imagine she's right here with you now. She can hear everything
you say, so you can open your heart and tell her anything you want her
was ready. "Melissa, you brought the whole family together in such a special
way, Honey. You will always be precious to me and I will never forget
you." I asked Sandra if she had a going-away gift for Melissa. "Yes, I
have a white candle for you, Baby. This candle symbolizes the Light that
you have brought into all of our lives." Tears were streaming down the
sides of her eyes and her mouth was trembling.
for a minute, then asked, "Does Melissa have a gift for her grandmother?"
replied, "Yes, she is giving me a pink light, so I will remember to keep
my heart open."
around the group and we all had tears in our eyes. I asked Sandra to say
goodbye to Melisssa and as she did, I felt an impulse to make sounds.
I opened my mouth and was amazed as anyone else to hear the angelic sounds
that came floating over us all.
I had an impulse to feel the spin of energy at her left hip, which is
a minor chakra. The left side of the body is the feminine side and is
often influenced by one's mother. The right side relates to the masculine
and is often influenced by one's father. The left hip stores the energy
of the mother (or any other highly significant female) during the first
few years of a person's life, and prenatally. When I feel the spin of
energy at the left hip, I receive images and information about that person's
mother; sometimes I experience the mother's personality and thoughts and
emotions as if they were my own.
do I feel about this child?' I asked myself internally, imagining Sandra
as an infant, and myself as her mother. I waited until I felt a sense
of the energy between myself and my infant daughter. I noticed that I
felt tense. 'How do I feel about being a mother'' I asked myself. I felt
the energy becoming jagged. Instead of moving in a smooth circle, it had
sharp edges. I allowed my intuition to make its own connections between
SandraÕs mother and the sharp edges.
seconds the image and the feeling clicked into place. Still I was careful
not to make assumptions and phrased my perception as a question. "Was
your mother angry or abusive when you were an infant?" I asked.
have no idea!" she gasped. With this confirmation I gave my intuition
free reign and disengaged my conscious mind. "So it was especially
important for you to save this infant, your granddaughter, from experiencing
pain, wasnÕt it?" I asked sympathetically.
sucked in her lower lip and nodded in agreement. I felt a strong impulse
to move to the other side of the table so I could make sounds into her
left hip. "I want to do some Shamanic Sounding for your hip,"
I explained,""If itÕs okay with you, IÕm going to prod with my fingers
to feel where the tightness is. Then IÕll use sound to break up the stuck
energy. Is that all right?" She nodded her permission. I thrust my
thumbs gently into her hip joint, feeling for places of constriction.
I felt my own hips shifting as I allowed my emotional/physical body to
merge with hers, to identify the feelings frozen into her hip.
easy to feel the constriction, and the constricted emotions were not pleasant.
"These sounds aren't going to be pretty," I said aloud to Sandra,
and to the group, "You can cover your ears if you want. It isn't
necessary to hear the sounds with your ears; they will be received directly
through the cells of your hip." I cupped my hands over her hip joint
and brought my mouth directly between my thumbs, using my hands like a
megaphone. I shut down the part of my mind that worries about what other
people think, and I focused on giving vocal expression to the pain, agony
and powerlessness that I could literally feel in her joint.
and cried, making shocking sounds. Sandra's eyes were closed, but with
each sound she nodded in recognition. When I made the last sound, the
room was deathly silent. I held that silence for several minutes, allowing
the full impact to penetrate into the muscles and tendons of her joint.
Since my own body was psychically connected to hers, I could feel her
muscles and tendons literally unwinding from the tension they had been
holding. I hoped that soon they would relax into their normal healthy
a few minutes, I touched her arm. She opened her eyes and smiled at me
with deep gratitude. "I could relate to every sound you made,"
she said. "Those were the exact sounds that I could not express."
her smile and looked around the circle. I could see that some people had
experienced profound changes. A box of tissues was going around the circle,
and some people were crying openly. I, too, was deeply moved by the sounds
and movements that came through me. But I learned long ago to give it
all to God. It was His show.
my conscious mind was reminding me to return to the topic of my talk.
I looked at the small table that held my healing crystals. I wanted to
reinforce the work with a crystal, to ground the new energy into Sandra's
body. I reached for the large smoky quartz crystal and held it up for
her and the others to see. "I'm going to put this smoky quartz at
your hip," I explained. "This brown quartz pulls negativity
out of the body, and thickens it and makes it heavy so that it sinks down
into the ground." I placed the fat 8-inch-long crystal on her left
hip, aiming the point where the six sides come together toward her feet.
I was quiet for a minute. Sometimes I just stop and wait until I feel
moved to do the next thing.
can feel it!" Sandra exclaimed. "I can actually feel the energy
moving from my left hip down and out of my left foot! I've never felt
anything like that before!"
It's gratifying when people can feel the powerful energies of the crystals.
It was time to bring the healing session to a close. I usually end my
sessions with Shamanic Sounding. There are many Shamans who use my voice
and hands for this work. I never know which ones will come, and I never
know what they will do. Some are Siberian, some Native American , some
Chinese or African or Hawaiian. My eyes are usually closed, and my hands
and arms move above the person's body as if making adjustments in their
aura; pulling out or sweeping away energies. My conscious mind simply
witnesses all this and is as surprised as anyone else at the sounds that
come out of my mouth and the gestures I make.
make adjustments in their field, I can feel the energies, but I cannot
see them; that is not one of my gifts. When I do this work in public,
there are almost always some people who can see energies, and later I
enjoy hearing their descriptions.
I began sounding for Sandra I said, "Those of you who see energies
might keep your eyes open, because it can be quite a show." Standing
over Sandra, I closed my eyes and allowed the sounds and movements to
come through. In the beginning, the sounds were soothing and nurturing.
Then they became staccato, as if energy was being broken up. I found myself
making a swift back-an--forth motion over Sandra's pelvis with my right
hand and forearm. My conscious mind barely took note of this and it wasn't
until later that I realized this was the same motion I did over my late
husband's body when he died in 1998.
body had been laid out in the living room. I was feeling very attached
to his precious body, and not happy about having to let go of it the next
day. I went into the bedroom to sleep, and when I awoke I felt overwhelmed
by a shamanic force that powered me into the living room, where I promptly
began forcefully toning over his body, and then I witnessed myself doing
just that kind of swift back-and-forth motion, sideways to his body, all
the way from his head to his feet. When that was complete, I had no more
attachment to his body. All the cords were cut. I was totally ready to
let him go.
was what I seemed to be doing with Sandra's body; cutting the cords to
her granddaughter, which she had been holding at her left hip. The sounding
lasted about five minutes, while Sandra went into a trance, which is what
usually happens. When I complete the sounds my clients are usually immobilized.
Occasionally their bodies will shake or tremble. I believe they go into
a deep delta state where profound healing takes place. The trembling is
probably a release of the kundalini energy that goes up the spine. When
I work in private, I usually leave the room after the Shamanic Sounding
to allow my client to assimilate the vibrations.Later they report images
that occurred while I was toning, or sensations in their bodies. I, too,
get a rush of energy from those powerful sounds, and sometimes I see images
or scenes that seem to be from that person's past lives.
the sounding I let Sandra lie there for several minutes, then I put my
hand on her arm and she opened her eyes and smiled. I gave her a big hunk
of black obsidian to hold. "This will help you get back into your
body so you can drive home," I told her. Obsidian is great for grounding.
the other stones and helped her stand up, asking her to walk around to
test her hip. As she walked everyone could see that her limp was gone.
"It feels like my whole leg has been energized."
her a big hug and one of the women remarked at how relaxed Sandra's face
was. We discussed what happened, and several people reported seeing the
energies. Over the years, more and more people have begun to see and feel
the energies, and they have become more willing to acknowledge and use
these gifts. One woman remarked, "I could see little devic beings jumping
around when you were making the sounds to break up the energy." Both Sandra
and another woman said they saw the same beings.
man and another woman saw a cloud of gray energy hovering over Sandra
when she laid down. While I was making back-and-forth motions with my
arm, they saw the gray energy being sliced into small pieces. The man
said, "This has never happened to me before, but I could actually
smell the gray energy. It smelled like moldy, wet stone. After the gray
energy was sliced, it got sucked up by the smoky quartz and then it shot
down through her left leg and out her foot."
Sandra a week later. "My hip is almost entirely normal," she
said gratefully. "It just pulls a little when I walk upstairs. My
doctor can't believe the change. And my attitude is better. I feel happier.
I don't need sleeping pills. I feel completely at peace with my little
granddaughter. Thank you so much!"
a pleasure to work with Sandra, because she was so open to suggestions
and so willing to work. She was tired of holding onto that old grief,
and she just needed a little encouragement to let go of it. If we had
more time we could have worked with the small pain that still remained
in her hip, which may have had an entirely different underlying cause.
Many of my clients and students have been able to reverse diagnoses of
hopeless arthritis and deteriorating joints.
pain and tension can be alleviated by paying attention to the underlying
problem. When we give expression to emotional and physical pain, the constriction
unwinds, and this increases circulation to the area, allowing natural
realignment and healing to take place. Sandra's was not a passive role;
she was an active participant in her own healing. The Hawaiian kahunas understood that healing cannot occur when a person is plagued by guilt
and unexpressed emotions. That's why we work on the Underlying Cause.
Once the emotions are understood and expressed, the barrier falls away.
Then healthy energies flow in and the body returns to its own healthy
harmonic resonance. The emotional release sounds combined with the smoky
quartz to break up and eliminate old dysfunctional energies. I could have
done the work without these vibrational tools, but it would have taken
several sessions instead of one. Alternately, Sandra could have made the
sounds herself. Perhaps in the future she will make sounds to express
her emotions before they harden into painful areas in her joints. I look
forward to a time when this kind of work will always be done long before
surgery is considered.
Copyright 2003 Joy Gardner